This is our night sky tonight.
It falls on a night that my heart is heavy for the brokenness in the world. My cheeks are wet with the sorrow and grief.
Staring up at this night sky, I am reminded of your beauty and majesty. You have to be beautiful and majestic to create something so glorious!
And my heart aches. How long, O Lord…must we wait?
When will you come? When will you take us home? When will you put an end to it?
No, we don’t deserve it. It is all our fault. All of it. But you are glorious and majestic. You are good and gracious. You are mighty and powerful. You are better than us. You don’t make the same sinful decisions we make. You are better. And you did something about our failure. You reached out to us. You sent help.
I know you will come. I believe it. I trust it. But I long for it to be sooner. I bear the burdens of all the hurts, failures, and sins of, not only my own heart, but those around me. I cannot help it. You have given me your heart. I ache for all you have created as you do, though I know not nearly to the same depth or degree.
I also know that I must surrender. I cannot bear the weight of it all. It will crush me! I am not You! I must love and serve and seek the good of all by pointing them to you but I cannot take full responsibility for their salvation, growth, or change. This is your right and authority alone.
Looking at this sky tonight, I know you are good and worthy of such trust and submission. While I ache for you, while I ache for the pain of those in this world, I will continue to trust, Abba. What other choice do I have? Your time will be perfect. You will come. And we will enter your rest and it will be glorious!
Until then, may I surrender to you. Let me love, serve, and proclaim. And may I do so with grace and compassion.
Yes, Abba. You are good. You are sooooo good!
I love you.